But the more I hesitate, the more I fall for him

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Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous..
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .

So I change my name, because my mother tell me 'doh make she shame'......

When the music hits my brain I feel I’m going crazy,
I can jump for miles and miles and feel no pain.
It’s in my blood, it’s in my veins,
Cyah wash it off, I’m forever stained.

Sometimes I sit back with a Buddha sack

Mind's in another world thinking how can we exist through the facts

Meh, I don't know what to write about.

---CONFESSIONS101---
-1. Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a B?? Nope
-2. Are you watching TV?? Nada
-3. If you were given a drug test right now would you pass?? Yes, I only get high on lifeeeee
-4. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?? Michael Scoffield....but i think he escaped again
-5. Do you like the color green?? Mehhhh
-6.Who were the last 3 people to send you a message?? too lazy to check
-7. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs??*hangs head in shame*
-8. Do you have a crush?? Nope
-9. Last restaurant you went to?? Last retaurant to sit and eat, was Kultura, I think.....or Pho, and take out was Sweet India.
-10. Last message you received?? Can't remember
-11. What did you do yesterday?? word and ciffa dinner
-12. What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars?? Buy a house in hawaii
-14. Who was the last person that you felt was stalking you?? I don't get stalked, i do the stalking
-15. Have you ever been on your school's track team?? Yup
-16. Do you have any piercings/tattoos?? Si senor
-17. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? Meh, don't really like long drives where I'm not doing the driving.
-18. Do you swear at your parents?? No, not really......
-19. Is your phone right beside you?? Yes
-20. Anything make you sad today?? Nope
-21. Have you cried today?? Nope
-22. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?? Well, if they're reading this, then maybe
-23. Do you like bottled water or tap water?? bottled
-24. Have you ever crawled through a window?? Nope
-25. Are you photogenic?? Nope
-26. What do you spend most of your money on?? baby and food
-27. What was the last thing you did?? Print some POD's
-28. Do you have a tattoo?? Numerous
-29. What's a secret you never told any of your friends?? Like i'm gonna put that here
-30. Ever told someone you love them and didn't mean it?? Yes
-31. Are you protective of those you care about?? Definately
-32. Are your parents married/divorced/separated?? Married.
-33. What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?? Meh
-34. What objects are around you right now?? Work stuff
-35. What's on the walls of your room? Some stickers and glow in the dark paint
-36. Are you genuinely happy?? no
-37. Do you have trust issues?? Most definately
-38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?? Being closer to a long weekend
-39. Are you listening to anything right now?? The hum of my computer
-40. Where's the last place you went?? to work :(
-41. What's your favorite thing to do?? sleep
-42. What do you miss right now?? there's a who i miss, and that would be baby, but i miss summeer too, b/c we have SNOW OUTSIDE!!!!
-43. Lyrics stuck in your head?? knock you down by keri hilson, kanye, and neyo
-44. What are you doing this weekend?? Lond weekend babbbeeeeee. Celebrating K's bday.


---FRIEND CONFESSIONS---
-1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?? honestly, yes.
-2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?? Only one....shout out to Nikki!!!!!
-3. Are any of your friends taller than you?? Yes
-4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend?? sadly so :(
-5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized?? not all, damn you cell phones w/ your programmed numbers!!! **shakes fists in the air**
-6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?? yes
-7. Have you been to most of your friends' houses?? Yes


---HABIT CONFESSIONS---
-1. Do you play with things when nervous?? Ok
-2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?? Nope, fire
-3. Do you sleep with the doors open or closed in your room?? closed if babe sleeps w/ me, if not then open
-4. Is there at least one thing you can't stand?? at least.......
-5. What is your worst habit?? too many to list
-6. Any weird obsessions?? not really
-7. Do you bite your lip or bite your nails more?? lip
-8. Do you love most of your friends?? love is a strong word, hahahaha


---PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS---
-1. Do you think abortions are horrible?? nope
-2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad?? nope
-3. Needles aren't so horrible?? hell yeah, they are!!!!
-4. Do you have plenty of secrets?? Yes......


---HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS---
-1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs?? yes
-2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?? yes
-3. Have you ever slapped someone across the face?? yes
-4. Have you ever killed anyone?? if i tell you, i'll have to kill you
-5. Worn the same clothes for a week straight?? jammies to sleep

---OTHER CONFESSIONS---
-1. Do you enjoy drama?? That's why i watch The Hills
-2. Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?? nope
-3. Who would you like to hit right now?? one person comes to mind
-4. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?? I dunno.....

I have no problem with you f*cking me

But I do have a problem with you not f*cking me.....

Scratch that, I do a pretty good job of f*cking myself.....over, that is.
In regards to my money cutting back ways, I've have come to realise that saving money is difficult. I know, I know, this revelation should have already dawned upon me, but lo and behold......i am slow or ignorant or something where I tend to see thing my way, and quite frankly, saving money wasn't my thing. Until now.
I am broker than broke. I gave Meli to hold onto my credit card (well the one w/ the most spending capabilites) so that I wouldn't spen anymore. That lasted all of two days. My emergency credit card is now maxed out again on non-emergencies. And I do have an emergency (my car) that needs fixing now and no moolah.
I will be getting back some money from my taxes, however, I now have to pay for a maxed out credit card (which I do plan to give back to Meli) and my car and some other expenses I let pile up. I know for sure i'm not getting back nearly enough to pay for all that stuff. Instead, that money should've been put towards the principle of my loan, or even put towards my parents.
I think I really have a spending problem.

My new mantra is now:
ACT MY WAGE

Say it with me, act my wage, act my wage, act my wage, act my wage, act my wage, act my wage,......................

and it hurts with every heartbeat

So I haven't done one of these or one of these in a while, primarily because One Tree Hill was (getting???) stupid and The Hill was on hiatus. But One Tree Hill (which will be referred to as OTH from this point on) came back last night, and I usually choose Heroes over that show, but Heroes was a repeat and OTH looked like a new episode, so I took the bait.

First of all, One Tree Hill was still stupid. It's always so damn happily ever after shiz. I gag whenever Haley and Nathan come on. I can't stand them. How are they a successful basketball player and singer. Aren't all professional basketball players expected to have finished college. Ok, singing you don't require an education, but she was also a high school teacher!! WTH, I know that requires an education!!! ANyways, after throwing up, there's Peyton and Lucas. So, Peyton is pregnant and now she's given the ultimatum that if she goes trhough w/ the pregnancy, she might die. Lucas wants her to end the pregnancy and she's adamant about keeping the baby. At the end, they decided to keep the baby and risk it. I hope Peyton dies. I don't mean to sound mean, I just think that would be awesome. I personally think it would be a great way to end the show i.e. Jenn dying on Dawson's Creek. Then, there's Brooke. I love Brooke. She needs a happy ending.

At this point I usually go to sleep, b/c i'm not really a big The City fan, but I was like, what the hey. Initially, I tried to get into it, but it's so painful to watch. And not for the reasons you and you think. It's just like she's this little kitten and she's being thrown into the lions den to fend for herself. This was the season finale and I liked it. I actually think it was one of the better episodes. LC was in it. That was enjoyable. But basically, Whit kicked Jay to the curb mannnnnn. Even after he dropped the "l" word. WICKEDDDDD. Props to my girl Whit. Hopefully Ally takes Whitney's lead as an example as how to handle stupid bf's. Instead, she decides to move back in w/ her cheating ex. Whaever. She needs to eat. Then Adam yelled at Erin for interferring in the rel'p. I totally agree w/ him, b/c their (Adam and Ally) rel/p is b/w them.

My favorite quotes in this episode.....no, in the whole show:
DVF (the motherfrickin' designer) telling Whitney: "The only relationship that matters in the end, is you relationship with yourself."

DVF to Whits agagin: "Absence to a relationship is like wind to fire. If the relationship is little and weak, the wind will snuff it out. If the relationship is strong and big (like), the absence will make it go help it become something more."

KA-POW!!!!

P.S., I'm glad they played this song as she was walking away from Jay
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Mammi got an a** like a donkey

uno, dos, tres, quatro

I know this is a post about pitbull (well not so much a post as a filler) but can someone tell me what the hell is wrong with this chick.