Monday, December 21, 2009

You may say i'm a dreamer...

but i'm not the only one.....

The all time BEST moment in television ever.


Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Yeah, I'm fresh, supa fresh

I would do me in a sec.


You know those Windows 7 commercial, where they have average looking people telling stories about they re-worked Microsoft to fix it up to better suite them. You know those parts where they have flash backs and you see how they see themselves as beautiful model-esque and brillliant. I feel like that in real life.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Was interupted

by this chicken that I used to cluck with.....

IMISSYOUBLOG
I will be back soon time guys.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

You try to scream

but terror takes the sound before you make it.

I'm home by myself and Gary just visited me again.

damn.it.

Gary (as named by John) is the ghost that lives in my house. I'm not sure if it is a girl or a boy. I'm not even sure if it's only one. I myself has seen the woman and I've heard the man speak. My mom has seen the little boy and my sister has encountered the male. Neekee had encountered one as well.
When we first moved in, there was an urn in the linen closet and my mom got rid of it. Every year since, right around Halloween (which usually coincides with a religious time for us Hindu's, where we pay homage and respect to the dead) this house gets visited. Now, I've never claimed to be religious in any means, but usually after these visits my mother will do this cleansing of the house and the ghosts won't come again until the next year.
He/She/It has contacted, yes, but has never been violent, which i'm grateful for. If they became violent, I would encourage my parents to sell the house.
But so far, all I really do is lose sleep.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I don't see nothing wrong

with a little bump and grind.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Monday, November 2, 2009

No, I'm not a Jonas

Brother, I'm a grown up.

I was watching one of my teen angsty shows and one of the young lovers confessed that he cheated on their relationship. This got me thinking; is confessing really good for the confeser or the confesee?? Is it good for anyone. They say ignorance is bliss, and I kind of believe it.
It can be applied to any situation actually, if you think about it; confessing to cheating, stealing or lying, etc. You know, all 10 of the commandments, basically.
So if confessing against a sin, the confessor is the one that is ridding themselves of burden, right? I mean, they are getting it off their chest, they are the ones clearing their conscience.
Now they've gone and out all this pressure onto the confessee. They could've thought that maybe thier relationship wasn't in the best place necessarily, but now they know that their trust in the confessor has been thrown away. Or has it? I mean, yeah, the confessor did break a rule, but they fessed up. That's worth something, right?
Then there's the other scenario, where the confessor doesn't confess but gets caught later on. Is that better? They were trying to save that burden from the confessee and keep it to themselves and something they will live with forever, and it in turns ends up backfiring, because it looks like they are now a liar.
I don't know what would be better, honestly.
I just know that if that was me, I wouldn't fess up. I would take that to the grave with me.
Deny, deny, deny........

Sunday, November 1, 2009

If you should ever find someone new,

I know she'd better be good to you.............

Totally random update;
  • I hate being brokeass.
  • I start work in a week. YAH!!
  • I don't get paid until the end of the month. BOO!!
  • Happy Birthday Daddy!
  • Why do my parents INSIST on living on a blasted haunted house?!?! (I'll update about that later)
  • Damn you Gary!!
  • Damn, I have a lot of spelling mistakes on this blog. I wish there was a spell check before posting.
  • Halloween party was the bomb. Thanks Meli

Ok, that's it.

Bye!

Friday, October 30, 2009

10 Things I'm Greateful For

I'm gonna start a new monthly regular on my blog. At the end of every month, I will list 10 things that I am grtfeul for for that month.

Let's start with October:

1. Baby
2. My parents
3. Mel, John and Fat Head
4. Ballerinas dancing to baby beluga
5. Baked goods
6. Indian sweets
7. NO SNOW!!!
8. Pink Capes
9. Superman
10. Sauasage rolls.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

My not so secret crush



Yea, I think I like him

He ain't had a buzz like this.......

....since the last time that he overdosed.

Shouts to Neekee , for getting this right. BONUS POINTS!!!

But in case the rest of you (all three) don't know where these lines are from, it's from this video; Forever by Drake, featuring Kanye, Lil Wayne and Eminem.

Everyone is weighing in on who they think has the best lyrics. And I am in no way, shape or form, a hip hop head. But I know what I like.

And I think that Eminem has the best "flow" (???), hahaha. I like how he picks up the beat, he rhymes quick. I think he has a tremendous amount of talent. Too bad he feels the need to dumb himself down, i.e his forst album and all the slim slady shit, where he raps in that high pitched voice making him seem like an idiot. He has the same affect that Ghost has singing reggae, hahaha.

Then I like Kanye's next. I know he's an ass, ans he totally contradicts the point of the song, but I feel where he's coming from. He's cocky and he's used to people letting him get away with the shit that he says and does. But he's human. I feel like he's trying to warn Drake, with all this fame and success he wants, be warned mang, be warned. But 'Ye is sort of a complainer. His first album had Spaceship, and he was complaining about working and not getting any reconition. Now he's getting attentiona nd he doesn't want it anymore. Meh, it's Kanye.

I feel like Drake and Lil Wayne's verse are weak. And again, this is only my opinion. Drake is like dumbing it down and not really singing about anything. He's way too cocky, and yes, he does have reason to be sure of his talent, but honestly, he needs to chill. I don't really like any of his songs, to be honest, other than this one, and I think it's because of Eminem.

Lil Wayne, is just himself. Half the time, I don't have any idea what he's saying. And I do like his songs, but they're more for the beats, and to hear Robin Thicke, hahaha. I love me the sounds of his soulful crooning.

But yea,my take.

I don't really have anything to write about as you can obviousky see from my last two posts.

Ok, that's it.

Bye.

Shhhhhhh.........

..........My foots sleeping on the gas.

Dear Life,

I know I haven't really been good too you and you've given me nothing my support and love. You've given me oppurtunities and second, third and fourth chances and I keep fucking you over. You deserve so much more from me, and I feel disgusted that I haven't been what you were hoping for, what you were investing into a relationship. I feel like things have been moving too quickly and I've always just been behind by a couple days, but that's always been more than enough time to mess up what we were building towards.
I think you deserve better. You deserve some who appreciated the efforts made, who takes advantage and completes what's been handed to them. Someone who recriprocates those emotions and feelings back to you.
I guess you can call this my 'Dear John' letter.
I think we should break up.
Please don't call me or email me anymore.

Have a good one,
Love,
llleeesssaaa

***Disclaimer, i'm not suicidal or anything, just venting and self pitying****

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Dananananana

Dananananana, dananananana, clapclapclapclap.

I went to Ocktoberfest yesterday. It consisted of eating really gross sausages with saukrate and drinking beer. I was fasting so I had the luxury of eating popcorn and beer nuts. Because I was dd too, I got a nifty sticker that got me access to unlimited free soda and juice (BONUS!!!!). The highlight of my night (other than seeing one of my cousins drunk out of her pants thanking all civil servants for their duties) was seeing these great masses of people doing the chicken dance. If you don't know what it is, YouTube it. Just all these people in sync. It was interesting. That will be my most memorable memory of my first Oktoberfest.

lalalala

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again.

I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
and if it hits better make it worth the fall.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

We so tight

That you get our styles tangled.

I've been a little busy with life and such. Will go into details later. Miss you guys. Hopefully, I'll be able to provide more of an update later.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I used to have hood dreams

Big fame, Big chains
Hellomynameisllleeesssaaaandiam
mediocre

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Winter hating on me......

......cus i'm colder than y'all

BabyGirl has gym today and she hates changing in the change rooms, especially now that she has gym last period. So on days that she has gym, she usually wears jogging pants and t-shirts so that she doesn't have to change and she already has on proper attire. Well, with jogging pants, they don't usually come with the elastic adjustable waists, they're either elastic or they have a string to tie. Well, Baby has some jogging pants where they are elastic and the string is for aesthetic purposes only. Today she wore one of the jogging pants that fit lengthwise but are loose around the waist. Since there is no way to adjust the waist on her jogging pants I have this method to make the waist fit on her pants. I grap the excess fabric either in the front or the back of her pants (which ever is loosest) and I take a hair tie and I tie the hair tie around the bunch of fabric. Now it does leave this piece out that is less than desirable, but it works.....mostly. However, I am sure today when she comes home from school, I will get in a loadful of crap because the hair tie probably came out and her pants have fallen off. It has happened before.

Monday, September 21, 2009

I used to have a man.....

He used to have a side chick.........
My cousins wedding was this weekend. I'm not trying to only find the negative things that happened and dwell on those, but let's be honest; there was nothing good there to go to and there was no fun had. My night consisted of negative things, so I will tell you about that. If you don't want to know about it, or think that I am too negative, feel free to navigate your way off my page. Here are some highlights (if you will):
First of all, if anyone ever decides to mapquest Les Jarding banquet hall, DONT!!! You will get the wrong address. Ended up going 20mins in the wrong direction. Then I had my over anxious mother and grandmother in the car. Oooh boy, did I get an earful. We arrived on time though, at 6, and the bride was only then entering the building, to go to her special area to wait until she was called. Then, they did not have a seating plan. So remember, I was initally upset that I had to sit with single people. Well, now there was no seating plan, so I sat with Meli and my parents and aunt sat right beside us. When the speeches were going on, everyone was talking about the bride and how good a catch she was. Well, I 've known her most of my life, albeit, we weren't close or anything, but we knew eachother and I'm sorry, but I don't share these same memories. I know it's her wedding and they can't really say she's a bitch and good for nothing, but it just got me thinking that hey, maybe I missed out on this great person whom everyone seems to truly like. But then I'm like 'fuck it. I have enough great people in my life and they are all that I need'. The speeches were long. The MOH, i'll admit had a speech, which is one up on me who just started crying and left the mic (MELI, I TOLD YOU I DIDN'T WANT TO!!!), but I thought she was too loud and obnoxious. Nothing new. The music sucked. The dj talked too much. I did like the fact that I had unlimited access to all-i-can-drink virgin caesars. The bartender kept laughing at me whenever I ordered it though, is there something humourous about me asking for that?? The meal was buffet!! And the options sucked. There wasn't even fried chicken. The speeches ended up going on until 10 pm. Then the one cousin that I speak to, she left at 11. Meli left even before the speeches were done!! Plus my dress was too loose around my breasts area and I was having issues with it staying up. My cousin decided that her sister should get the bouquet for the toss, and her parents were none the happier. Honestly, she hasn't even been with the guy for a year yet. Plus, they're soooo awkward. They just look like they're trying too hard.
So, it was what was expected.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

lalala II



i'm feeling mm lately.........

lalala


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

This is harder than I thought;

i quit.

Blueprints in my pink ipod

Black diamonds in my hey-seus piece, my God!
(Not really, more like in my Krishna piece)
I'm at a loss. I bought a strapless dress and it's a little short for the wedding this weekend. Now it's going to be cold and I don't have a sweater or coverup to wear with it. What do you suggest??

Please see below my dress and shoes, except my dress doesn't have that green belt, it's black, and the shoes are black sequenced.



Away from me to see clearly

The way that love can be when you are not with me.
My future-baby-daddy tour.


Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Just remember......

You're the one thing I can't get enough of. So I'll tell you something; this could be love!!
R.I.P Patrick Swayze

"I'm gonna do my kind of dancin' with a great partner, who's not only a terrific dancer; somebody who's taught me that there are people willing to stand up for other people no matter what it costs them; somebody who's taught me about the kind of person I wanna be."

Monday, September 14, 2009

The world is filled with 'em

Morons, idiots, jackasses, and assholes. Whatever you want to call them, unfortunately, the world is filled with them.

Some examples are:

1. Caster Semenya. She is not the idiot though. She is victim of such people who, unfortunately for her, head the IAAF. She is also a runner competing to be in the Olympics. Her story is that she (and yes I said she) was born a hamophrodite. However, she didn't know and no one in her family knew. To train as a female runner, there are instances where girls don't get their periods at all, and she was athletic, so she had a runners body; very slim and muscular, almost no breasts. Hell, I'm not a runner and I have no breasts. Anyways, unbeknownst it to ANYONE, she has no female reproductive organs and internal male testicles. Now, in her last race, she blew the competition out of the dust and that caused some jealousy with the other runners. They wanted proof that she was a female. They claimed that she was a man racing as a female to win some medals. So she went for testing, and low and behold the results came out that she was a hemaphrodite. But she didn't get the results first hand. No, it was PUBLISHED IN AN AUSTRALIAN NEWSPAPER before she even knew!!!! Before her family even knew!!! Now this poor girl has to deal with all the bs since she has been outed before she even knew. It was said that she's under suicide watch. My heart goes out to her.

2. Kanye West is a jackass. 'Nuff said.

3. My cousin is getting married this weekend. Now, we've been to weddings where they've seated people to keep the whole family together, or to keep the adults together, but the cousins (if you will) sat together, and even where they split up everyone, so that there are new people sitting with new people but they always kept Meli and I together. Now for this cousins wedding, they've decided to sit the single people together and the married people together then, I guess. So Baby and I am sitting with my cousins (I think), and Meli and my parents are sitting together with my aunt and Grandma. Why the f*ck would you seperate it to sit like that?!?! I want to broadcast my single mommy hood?!?! I am soo desperate to be hooked up with someone?!??! Well, I am, but you don't need to share my business like that man........

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Ay yo, I smoke like a chimney

Matter fact - I smoke like a gun when a killer sees his enemy.


Not really, I don't smoke, but why is it you can't find lyrics like this anymore. WHO KILLED THE MOTHER FRICKIN' MUSIC?!?!?!

Anywho, just an update in my sad and pathetic life. No, I lie again, I'm just in one of those moods where I think my life suck, but really I should be counting my blessings. And I am grateful for everything that everybody that I have in my life. I have had alot of oppurtunities that have been more than enough to get me to where I want to be, it's my own slackness and laziness that's stopping me. I have no one to blame but myself.

Again, not really the point. This weekend was a long weekend. I made it extra long, not to the liking of Meli, as now I don't hav enough vacation time in November to go to Turks and Caicos. I know, I suck, I'm sorry (again). I will work something out, don't even worry about it.

Tried to prep Baby for the first day back. No, that's not true. I was trying to prep for the first day back for Baby. I miss sleeping in. I forgot how creative one has to be to pack a lunch. I forget how inflexible teachers can be and even worse, school secretaries. Hello, I'm not the student, speak to me like an adult, BECAUSE I AM ONE!!!! I forgot about all the issues Baby has with "friends". I forgot how I have to fight the urge to go to the school and smack all the wayward children. I forgot that I have to let Baby fight her own battles, and try not to hold on so tight. I forgot about all the extra costs involved with public school as all our money is now going into Catholic school board, and the new Afro-centric school.

Mo, you don't know how good you got it, mannnn.

Baby girl went AWOL,

........She used to be my soldier
You gotta be careful who u motivate though.. Motivate an idiot, and all u'll have is a motivated idiot!
- Rev. Run DMC

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Cooking chicken on the wall......

With the system up on full.


I think I'm going to rename September "llleeesssaaa's-self-pity-month".

I hate my life (except for Baby Girl).

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Look up in the sky, it's a bird, it's a plane...

Nah baby girl, that's a shooting star with your name.


So Baby starts grade 2 in less than a week. We're super stoked. We were recently out buying some back to school stuff, like pencils, eraser, pencil crayons, pencil cases, you know, stuff like that. Baby had specific things that she liked, prodominantly stuff licenced to Disney Princess. Now, if you did the math, she just turned 7 years old.
Here's my question, is she too old for this stuff?
She still likes to watch Treehouse and Disney Playhouse. She likes to play dress up and plays with her dolls and has imaginary friends. When we hang out with other kids, she will play with the younger ones, rather than the older ones. She's still into Disney Princess (as stated above), and Disney Tinkerbell and even CareBears. She hasn't really moved onto Hannah Montana or any of that Disney Channel stuff. Frankly, I don't mind that, because really those kids on those shows have way too much attitude. My child has enough of her own, she doesn't need those influences as to how to make my life more difficult.
Even last year, she came home and said, her friends made fun of her because she still believes in Santa and the tooth fairy. How and when should I break it to her? I want her to get everything out of her childhood, because she will have to grow up soon enough.

Happy Anniversary.......

To One Super-Duper Couple!!!

HAPPY SEPTEMBER!!!!

i'm sick.

Monday, August 31, 2009

I just can't, I just can't

I just can't control my feet.
On Friday I had less than a quater tank of gas at the end of a very irritating and tiresome night. I thought to myself that I would fill up in the morning or sometime during the weekend. Little did I know, that my sister had plans to kidnap my daughter (therefore me, as well) and we were on the adventure of a weekend. Came back home yesterday afternoon, and I did have time to get gas, but my lazy gene kicked in, so I lay on the couch for the duration of the evening. Before I went to bed though, my dad asked how much gas I had in my car. I told him the truth, less than half a tank. I would leave about five minutes early to get to work and stop at a gas station to fill up. As I was making my coffee this morning, my mom told me that my dad had taken my car over the weekend to put air in the tires because they looked low. As soon as I heard that, I knew that my dad filled up gas for me. Low and behold, when I got into my car this morning, I had a full tank.
Point of my story is, I love my daddy.

Happy Birthday MJ

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The Koala and the Lizard

THE KOALA AND THE LIZARD

A koala was sitting in a gum tree smoking a joint
when a little lizard walked past,
looked up and said,'Hey Koala!
What are you doing?'

The koala said, 'Smoking a joint, come up
and have some.'

So the little lizard climbed up and sat
next to the koala where they enjoyed
a few joints. After a while the little lizard
said that his mouth was 'dry' and that
he was going to get a drink from the river.

The little lizard was so stoned that he
leaned over too far and fell into the river.

A crocodile saw this and swam over to the
little lizard and helped him to the side.
Then he asked the little lizard,
'What's the matter with you?'

The little lizard explained to the crocodile that he had been sitting with the koala in the tree, smoking a joint, but got too stoned and fell into the river while taking a drink..

The crocodile said that he had to check this out and walked into the rain forest, found the tree where the koala was sitting finishing a joint. The crocodile looked up and said,

'Hey you!'
So the koala looked down at him and said,

'Shiiiiiiiiiiit dude...
How much water did you drink!?'

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

10 Random Things........

  1. *Crosses fingers*
  2. Why is it I like the radio more than my ipod recently......
  3. When did summer go by? I think I blinked and missed it.
  4. My boss is on vacation and I have become. so. lazy. and. slack.
  5. I broke my phone. It still works as a phone and I can still use all my apps, I just can't turn the ringer on and it's forever on vibrate.
  6. Baby has inherited my slacker gene and my attitude. FML.
  7. I want to go out for dinner....somewhere nice.
  8. I think I am more like my mother that I would like to admit
  9. I think you are more like your mother than you would like to admit.
  10. Marky has a fat foot

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Pretty neat......but mostly useless

I vant to suck your blooodddd

The Soucouyant or Soucriant in Caribbean and specifically Trinidadian folklore is a creature that lives by day as an old woman at the end of the village. By night, however, she strips off her wrinkled skin, puts it in a mortar and flies in the shape of a fireball through the darkness, looking for a victim to suck the life-blood out of. To get rid of her, you must put coarse salt in the mortar containing her skin, then she cannot put it back on and must perish. The Soucouyant practices witchcraft, voodoo, and black magic. Belief in Soucoyants is still preserved to some extent in Trinidad.[citation needed]

Origin
Belongs to a class of spirits called Jumbies. Some believe that soucouyants were brought from the European countries in the form of French vampire-myths. These beliefs intermingled with those of Africans, which were then enslaved. Others believe that soucouyants were actually elder ladies, who experienced many things unbearable to their neighbors. The neighbors, by this line of thought, would mock them for their wrinkled skin and fear their association with witchcraft.[citation needed].

In the French West Indies, specifically the island of Guadeloupe, the Soukougnan or Soukounian is likewise a person able to shed their skin to turn into a vampiric fireball, but they can be anyone, not only old women, although some affirm that only women could become Soukounian, because only female breasts could contain the creature's wings.

Beliefs
The skin of the soucouyant is said to be very valuable, as it is used when practicing the Black Magic - Obeah. The soucouyant can enter a home by turning into a fireball, and then entering through the keyhole or any crack/crevice in the home. If the soucouyant draws out too much blood from its victim, it is believed that the victim will die and become a soucouyant itself, or else perish entirely, leaving its killer to assume its skin.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I wish I could buy me a spaceship

and fly
If you know where this song is from, you'll know how i'm feeling right now.......

Mami's fly, watch your man

So Meli and I are starting are wedding planning business. We're willing to do the first couple relatively cheap (think FREE), just to get ourselves out there. If you know anyone that has a party that they need help planning, please think of us.

Monday, August 17, 2009

no fun title

Sorry, but i'm way tooooo lazy today to think of a creative title.

I loved the festivites this weekend, considering there was nothing really to celebrate. I lie, it's summer!!!

On Friday, Neekee, Meli, and I went out for Korean BBQ. Well, it was supposed to be Korean, because we were supposed to do Indian the previous weekend, but Maks wasn't feeling well, and I already had plans, so we re-scheduled. We then later decided that it would be for Neekee's bday since she would be MIA for it this year. So we went to Miga BBQ. It was sooo good. There was Japanese and Korean BBQ. So we had some sashimi (salmon, tuna, red snapper and white fish) and Korean BBQ (beef short ribs, boneless beef, spicy portk, spicy chicken, squid, shrimp and mussels). It was soooooo good. There wasn't cabbage kimchi, there was this cucumber kimchi, which was pretty good. And bean sprouts. I would definately go again.

Saturday and Sunday's was well wasted time at the beach. Oh, how I wish evey weekend, we could go to the beach.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I'm asking shorty 'what's up with you?'

She's asking 'what's up with me'....

My cousin got married two years ago. Let's call him "P" for pathetic. He's the type of guy that loves to be in love. He was in a steady relationship all through high school with the same girl. They broke up only because her parents wouldn't let her marry him for religious reasons. Then he promptly hooked up with his next girlfriend (whom we will name "S" for sad), not even a month after the break up. We knew this because, HE DECIDED TO INTRODUCE HER TO THE FAMILY!!!!! They were already saying that they were going to get married. So there were always questions about when they were going to get married, because his parents never really said anything and we weren't sure if we could take P&S seriously. Even right up to Meli's wedding, we kept getting acknowledgements that they were getting married. OK, great. We won't believe anything until we get the invitation. 6 months later, lo and behold, we get the invitation in the mail.
I actually wanted a guy like that, because in their brain everything is rainbow and butterflies. I mean, he would be so in love with the idea of being in love with me, he would put up with all my bullshit.
Or so I thought.
S has been emailing lately though because she's going through some issues. Apparently, P left her on Christmas Eve. That's is not common knowledge, so please people, keep it on the down low. I know it's on a blog, but you guys are special. Ok, so anyways, I'm just trying to supportive to S. Hell, I would've been supportive to P if he came to m eand told me that too. Notice the past tense of that statement. That has all changed.
Yesterday I rec'd an email from S saying she found his very public profile on Facebook and there are pictures of him and his new chick (we shall refer to her as "D" simply because I wanted to name her slut,or whore, or stupid, or bitch or anything degrading but we will stick with Dumb)that he hooked up with WHILE STILL MARRIED!!! He brought her into their matrimonial home and did things with her that only married couples do IN THEIR OWN HOME.
I feel like i'm am being pulled into this situation. I am very very opinionated and I feel like this is a bad thing that I know all this stuff about his lying, cheating scumbag ways because we do have another family wedding coming up in a month and I don't know how I will be able to keep quiet if I do see him. S has requested that I not say anything to him until the divorce is finalized, but how do I stay quiet. I really just want to smack him. I hope he doesn't show up.
I lie. I want him to show up with the chick........

That's right, put your pom-poms down

Getting everybody fired up


It's true, but didn't really realise it unitl John mentioned that these questions are really repetitive.
Oh well, here I go again........

Who are your last 2 texts from?
Teniel and Tinuke

What's bothering you right now?
What isn't bothering me is the question

Do people underestimate you?
Maybe

Do you wear a lot of black?
Only to work

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
Nope

What's the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
Wished I could go back to sleeeppppppp

How old do you look?
19-22 ish

Are you waiting for something?
Yes

What were you doing at 10 last night?
Eating pudding and watching Law & Order UK

Did you cry today?
Nope

When was the last time you cried?
2 days ago

Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
I'm really begining to dislike her

Where were you on July 4th?
Probably by Meli's

Who do you go to when you need someone to talk to?
Meli

Have you ever experienced a crazy ex?
Nope, but i've been the crazy ex, hahaha

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Not anymore, I enjoy sleep instead

Do you like to cuddle?
Yes

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Nope

Do you ever find yourself worrying about commitment?
Yes

What's the longest amount of time you've ever had feelings for someone?
Toooo long ass

Last beverage you consumed?
Tea

What piercings do you have?
Only ears

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
The billion dollar man, giving me a couple million

Do you laugh easily?
okay

Are you generally a nice person?
Yes

What happened at 9:00 am today?
I was at work

What do you currently hear right now?
Office banter

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Suzy Shier

Does anyone hate you?
Hat eis a strong word

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Yes

Are you anyones first love?
Probably not

Have you ever been searched?
Like my popo?? No, but I wish I had, haha

Does anyone know your MySpace password?
No go on the myspace

Do you believe in love?
okay

Did you mean it when you said I love you last?
Yes

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
No

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
Yes.....

When is the next time you will smoke something?
Not soon enough, haha

Is there someone you have feelings for that you really wish you didn't?
No

Do you have any notes saved on your phone?
Nope

Has anyone ever called you a tease?
Yes

What are you wearing on your feet?
Running shoes

Do you like winter?
Hell nooooooo

Will next Friday be a good one?
It'll be average

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Yes

How old will you be in 8 months?
28

Ever kiss someone who smokes?
Yes

What do you do with clothes you've out grown or don't want anymore?
Garabge

How do you feel about your hair
I.HATE.IT

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
Bora Bora

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Transformed into firearm.....

POW
.........like Megatron


So I guess i'm learning the hard way, that the grass isn't greener in the yard next door. Especially when the neighbour promises of a brand new lawn mower and hedge trimmer. Especially, when I realise that the property is actually a rental piece and there hasn't been a steady tenant ever. Especially since I realised that the home owner actuallly kicked out the previous tenant, because they didn't like them. Next time, I decide to move houses, I should reallly look into the neighbourhood and the actual block that the property is on. Lesson learned the hard way.
Mind you, because I am in dire need to move out now, I am again looking for anything that I can find within my budget, even another rental property.
But i'm promising myself, that my next steady yard will be a well thought of place and not necessarily just a move on a whim.......

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I put you in the game and.........

..........there you go complaining

There just seems to be soooo much going on, but it's to the point where there's toooo much is going on. However, everytime I come to write about something my mind goes blank.
So instead, I post these:


Monday, August 10, 2009

While politicin' with my sister from New York City

She say she know this ball player and he think I'm pretty

Had a fun filled weekend, but really it goes by too quickly. I'm looking forward to next weekend though, Korean BBQ, the beach and maybe shopping in Buffalo!

I've been reading this blog because one night I was flipping through blogs on my phone and stumbled upon this one. At first, it was funny and I actually had a few lol's moments. Plus, i'm single and I'm trying to find out how guys think, so I won't single anymore (other than the whole self-sabotage thing that has happened with the last 3 guys I was dealing with).
Now, this blog is a little bit male chauvanistics, but for the most part, I think it's kinda true. It's my inisght into a guys brain. Now, there are a few posts that deal with specifically black women, but the majority of it can be applied to women in general.
Now, this blog mostly says that if you can't get and keep a man, then the problem is you. And if you do read my blog, you know, that my commenters all think that I do have some mental issues too.
Now here's my question; should I try to be sane to attact and keep the guy? And if I do, then there's always the issue of me eventually morphing back into my insane self, because my "sane" self will all be just a front anyways, right??




pyscheeeeee....

Thursday, August 6, 2009

I'm not here for your entertainment

You don't really want to mess with me tonight

Maybe it's just me and maybe this explains why i'm single, but I hate it, like DESPISES it when a girl has to change who she is for a dude! Why the f*ck can't a girl be the same person she is with her friends and boyfriend/husband?!?! Don't change your voice when you pick up the phone, don't front like you don't do stuff you know you do, and lastly, don't drop jack all for him!
I've known too many girls that do all this crap for these dudes. And it's not even like they're really good guys. They've put these girls through sh*t and the girls still let them get away with it. Hell, most of the girls i'm talking about are still with these guys. Now, it's true, it's not necessarily the guys fault if he's an ass, but c'mon now girls, you've cuss'd me out for less than what they've done to you!
I'm soooo tired of being put on the blasted back burner because the guy suddenly realises that he has time for you.

F*UCK YOU!!

But before the night is through

I wanna do bad things with you.........

So she and her rave about True Blood. So being the independant individual that I am, I decided to follow fashion and see what the hype is with it. Honestly, after the whole Twilight debacle, I'm honestly ready to take a break from vampires for a longggg ass while. But they just kept on and on about how no sparkly vampires (which is a good, good thing), no stupid little girls falling in love with the beautiful vampires, (although Sookie is a little bit annoying). I decided to give it a try.
I went to Blockbuster because I don't have HBO and I keep forgetting what site Neekee told me to go to. I thought that the whole season would be on the same disc, so I didn't even look at the dvd when I rented it. I ended up renting episodes 8,9 and 10. Then hell, I already paid for it might as well watch it. So since I was dropped right in the middle, I wasn't really blown away. It was ok.....definately better than Twilight, but still just meh.
AND WHAT THE HELL IS IT WITH VAMPIRES AND WEREWOLVES!?!?!?!
But meh, whatever. Later this week, I'm going to try to get the first couple episodes and see if it makes a difference.
Will keep you posted.

Monday, August 3, 2009

I wish that my goods

outweighed my bads enough

Some highlights of my fun filled Caribana weekend (in no particular order):

  • Tornadoes in the city!!!
  • Delayed flight of almost 3 hours
  • Yummy, yummy, bloody steaks
  • Arriving into Canada at 4:30 am
  • Scalping tickets
  • "you could have really sold these tickets for $60 and made a profit"
  • text: "Ok, i've arrived, finally"
    text back: "ok, they're half an hour away. More hurry up and wait"
  • "when possible, make a legal u turn"
  • running around the CNE trying to make it into our sections before we crossed the stage
  • "don't worry, we won't leave you".......where are my scabiosa's!!!!
  • "is that rain???", in my all white costumes
  • too tired to walk a half an hour to the car
  • baby girl taking 200+ pics of my costume and her face
  • taking too long puting on my jewels that we arrived only with enough time to sprint
  • "you guys better hurry up" as they run by we hear "Wild roses crosses the stage".....WTH!!!
  • foam fete with no foam
  • "this is not soca"
  • "he can definately handle his alcohol"
  • "where's DD and cousin??" MIA. half an hour later DD: "Cousin's past out in the bathroom"
  • Neekeee's 10 year hiatus over!!!!
  • ♥♥♥ Juniors Cheesecake
  • boom boom badoom. "what's that noise?" "Tru fell down the stair"
  • "no Marky, you cannot eat mommy's costume"
  • "no Baby, you cannot take six breaks and come with us"
  • "get off my ass"
  • 12 missed calls from Home
  • Kev breaking into my phone!! Thanks!!!
  • Caribana highlights 2008
  • "Let's go for apple pie"
  • Apples are only in season in September!!!
  • 3 different apple orchards and all are closed
  • Bought some cherry pie instead
  • "Maybe make those piggies things say ur name"......blank stare from cashier
  • CN'z BAND OF THE YEAR!!!!!

HAHAHA, I ♥'d it!!!!


Thursday, July 30, 2009

Make no apology

So who don't like me, could bite me.


Well we got our costumes and they fit like they look; little to no coverage. Can't wait for the weekend.

Here we come........

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Never can say goodbye

Back behind this little smile I wore......

......How I wished that you were mine.


FML


While on a date with a new suitor this was the conversation that went down:

Me: What kind of girls do you usually go for?
Him: I'm usually attracted to the beautiful girls. You know, the ones who stop traffic and captures everyones attention when they walk into the room......
Me: ***blushes, while smiling broadly***
Him:.....but those girls usually dump me for the hot guy with the luxury sports car and penthouse condos. So i've since decided to only date ugly girls with low self esteem who can't get a better guy
Me: ***Blank stare***


Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I've been a victim of

A selfish kinda love

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8:00 a.m.
2. How do you like your steak? medium - rare
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? G-Force
4. What is your favorite TV show? Not really a t.v show type a gal
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Hawaii or Bora Bora
6. What did you have for breakfast? Tea
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Japanese
8. What foods do you dislike? Anythign with eggplant....yuck!
9. Favorite Place to Eat? Anywhere yummy
10. Favorite dressing? Renee's creamy caesar
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Toyota Corolla
12. What are your favorite clothes? Jogging pants and a big t-shirt....or nothign at all ;)
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? India or Japan (I concur)
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full ? It's just a drink........
15. Where would you want to retire? Hawaii or Bora Bora
16. Favorite time of day? Anytime i'm not at work.......
17. Where were you born? Trinbago
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Basketball
19. Do you love the one you're with? I love myself, yes
20. What's the freakiest place you've done "it"? I don't have sex anymore, I'm a born again
21. Are you naughty or nice? Nice
22. Bird watcher? Nope
23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night, definately not a morning person
24. Do you have any pets? Nope
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I'm bored
26. What did you want to be when you were little? A lawyer or banker
27. What is your best childhood memory? Learning to swim in Florida, I guess
28. Are you a cat or dog person? both
29. Are you married? Nope
30. Always wear your seat belt? If i'm in the front seats, yes.
31. Been in a car accident? Yes
32. Any pet peeves? Too many to list
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Hot peppers, anchovies, bacon bits (not strips), tomatoes, mushrooms
34. Favorite Flower? I don't know what they're called
35. Favorite ice cream? Cotton Candy, or hokey pokey
36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Harvey's
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Nada
38. From whom did you get your last email? Monique
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? I dunno....
40. Do anything spontaneous lately? Nope
41. Like your job? Nope
42. Broccoli? Yup
43. What was your favorite vacation? Haven't really been on one
44. Last person you went out to dinner with? Melito Big Daddy's crab shack
45. What are you listening to right now? Nada
46. What is your favorite color? Pink
47. How many tattoos do you have? 4
48. What's the wildest thing you've ever done? I'm a homebody.....don't really do the "wilding out"
49. What time did you finish this quiz? 11:19 am
50. Coffee Drinker? Only in frozen or cold forms

Friday, July 24, 2009

They cyah wine like wehhhhh

Now these are costumes.

Who has $1000US to let me borrow, because we have to do it biggg!

Monday, July 20, 2009

My love turns 7

I'm a little late, but I loooovvvveeee my baby!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!!!!!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

I'm melting

like hot candle wax

Remember this?? Well Meli and I went out for Summerlicious and we had it. She had the shrimp cocktail for appetizer and the seafood salad for her main course and she wanted the crepes for dessert but they were out, so she had vanilla bean cheesecake instead. I had the calamari for starters and the steak for my entree and the mud pie for dessert.
Added on, I had oysters and scallops. YUMMYYYYY. I love oysters. like ♥♥♥♥♥!!!
Anywho the place was good. I wish I were rich so I could eat the rest of the stuff on the menu. Everythign looked so good, but we were limited to what we could eat.
Maybe next time.

I wanna know where we're gonna go for Winterlicious.

That nasty boogie bugs me

but somehow how it has drugged me.


I am going to a strip club with my mother and my aunts tonight.



That's all.

You're playin' with your life,

this ain't no truth or dare




Why can't Toronto be more like this?!?!?!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

You're throwing stones......

without your hands......








And the whole world has to answer right now
'Cause to tell you once again:

Who's Bad (lands)

HAHAHAHA

You know I had to throw in MJ.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Now, don't go getting any ideas.........

you see i loved hard once
but the love wasn't returned
i found out the man i'd die for he wasn't even concerned
in time it turned
he tried to burn me like a perm
though my eyes saw the deception, my heart wouldn't let me learn
For, some dumb woman was I
and every time he'd lie
he would cry and inside i'd die
my heart must have died a thousand deaths
compared myself to Toni Braxton thought I'd never catch my breath
nothing left, he stole the heart beating from my chest
i tried to call the cops that type of theif they can't arrest
pain suppressed will lead to cardiac arrest
diamonds deserve diamonds but he convinced me I was worth less
when my peoples would protest
i told 'em mind they business 'cause my shit was complex
more than just the sex
i was blessed but couldn't feel it like when i was caressed
i'd spend nights clutchin my breast overwhelmed by god's test
i was god's best, contemplatin death because you left
but no man is ever worth a paradise manifest

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Who be in a Japanese restaurant, eating sushi.....

.....drinking saki? It's me and my mami with the doobie...

So I lie, it's actually a crab shack and with no doobie.....unless Meli rollsssssss.


$25 Dinner
plus taxes and gratuity

Caesar Salad
Roasted garlic dressing, parmesan croutons and bacon bits
or
Jumbo Shrimp Cocktail
Served on crushed ice with cocktail sauce
or
Grilled Creole Calamari
With Creole butter


8oz Striploin Steak
With garlic red skin potatoes, seasonal vegetables and a red wine cracked pepper sauce
or
Grilled Atlantic salmon
Marinated in Creole spices - Served with seasonal vegetables, Jambalaya rice and butter sauce
or
Big Daddy’s Seafood Salad
Mixed greens topped with roasted peppers, grilled onions, grape tomatoes, crispy capers, Jumbo shrimp, crawfish, smoked salmon, southern fried oysters with garlic croutons, Parmesan cheese and our Crab Shack vinaigrette


Sweet Crepes
With berry compote and vanilla ice cream
or
Vanilla Bean Cheesecake
With Caramel crème
or
Mississippi Mud Pie
Our own creation - baked with marshmallows and served warm with chocolate drizzle

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

She knows I'm watching

She likes the way I stare.......

**WARNING WARNING WARNING***
Really, really, really long post


I'm not sure if you remember this or not, but if not, refresh yourself. At the end of it, there was a part about Officer ****....or Nat....or Knatt....Well, whatever, Officer Looking-Good-but-probably-married-and-somewhat-psycho-but-nonetheless-drop-dead-gorgeous.
Ok, some back info on our "history" if you will. We were involved in a case together about 6 years ago (I was a witness to a heinous crime and he was one of the officers that were called to the scene). Well, the crime ended making it's way to trial, so I had to give my statement to him. He was definately a hottie. And a cop!! I ♥ cops. Anyways, he called one day to give an update on the trial or something, I honestly don't remember, and he ended up asking me out for coffee!! I knew that I was blushing on the phone. I'm a nerd, I know. Anyways, we tried to find some time to meet up for a while. He always wanted to meet while he was working. My mother made it known that she thinks he's married, and that's why he's always trying to get together when he works. And he only called me when he was at work too. So right before we actually went to trial, he went MIA. I called his division (Canadian terms for precinct) and he was on a leave of absense. Meli and I both thought that he had gone crazy and was taking time off. My mother thought that he went to India to get married. He was now an additional write off in my history of failed relationships.
Well, apparently Officer Hottie is back in town. Turns out that he really did go on a leave of absense. He went undercover to Vancouver, and 'leave of absense' is the terminology that you use for such occassions. How do I know, you ask. Well, he just happened to drive by my house when I wasn't home, and my parents and their subtle selves waved to him. WAVED.TO.HIM!!!! He came into the driveway and started talking to them and my dad ended up telling him I wasn't home and that I would be home tomorrow. Needless to say, I was giddy. Sure my parents lack tact, but hey, they get the job done.
The next day, Officer Too-Hottie shows up again!! I was at a birthday party though, so I wasn't home. I suspected he might be coming, but I didn't want to be home anyways, because I didn't get my eyebrows done. Plus, I had gained some weight in my mid section, and I am now a fat ass. And since he's gorgeousssss, I didn't want to be a let down. So, my dad gave him my number. Did I mention that I love my daddy. Yes, even my dad knew about my infatuation with Officer Gorgeous. So at the party, Officer Hottie ends up calling and we talk for a bit. After a little conversation, I had to go back, because it was Baby's turn at eating the donut on a string. Don't ask. Well Officer Mui-Good-Looking and myself end up texting for the whole party.
Now, here's the interesting part; he was looking for a booty call. He made it known right off the bat. I got offended and shut down the conversation. I mean, is that even allowed for a cop? Aren't they supposed to be society's prime citizens?!?! Since when is being easy a characteristic of an outstanding member of society??? Anyways, as per her, there was a better way to handle the situation. So a week after the shutdown conversation, I sent another text to apologise for the way I handled the situation, but I wasn't interested in a physical relationship only. I wasn't necessarily looking for long term, but definately not looking for booty calling. He said he understood but still wanted to talk. I honestly liked the attention I was getting from him.
He was still all about the coffee thing, but I really do have a tight schedule and don't really have time to date. So one night, he's like he'll bring the coffee to my house and we can just sit outside. I said ok, as that is all that I could do at the moment. See how exciting my social life is; I only have time for a coffe at 10:30 at night. I digress. Here are some "highlights" of our conversation:

OH (Officer Hottie): I moved to **** from ********
Me: Me too. Where abouts in *******?
OH: *****. It was such a shock to move from *****, because my best friend was black, and I had oriental friends, and west indian and white.
Me: Really, I thought you would've been comfortable around all these Indian people........

I then proceed to tell him the story of one of my friends whom I was reallly really close to in high school and in the last year she pulls away from us (the multi-cultural crew in high school) to hang with "her own kind".

Me: Thanks for the coffee. How come you didn't get one? (He was drinking a bottle of water)
OH: I don't drink coffee.
Me: Really? I thought all cops hang out at Tim Hortons (Canada's less expensive, simpler [none of this grande, vente nonsense] version of Starbucks).
OH: No, actually alot of police officers don't like coffee.
Me: Oh, it must be the donuts then......

Oh, and the best part was he was texting me when I met him and I showed him the text that he just sent. I have him saved in my phone as 'Officer Jackass'.
But even after all of that, when I left, he said that we would still meet in two days. That was our original "date". And he even texted me before I went to sleep. I didn't think my conversation deterred him.

But I haven't heard from him since. I'm not sure if I did something, or maybe he was really looking for a booty call, and didn't want to waste anymore time with me. Maybe he needed some time to let the conversation soak in before he realised that I am a raving lunatic. I don't know.

I'm beginning to think that maybe there is something wrong with me.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Hola Hombre

Mes parents sont allés au Cuba pour leur trente-troisième anniversaire.

Je suis très très jaloux et
je souhaite que je pourrais être allé.


Mais maintenant ils sont très très jaloux que j'obtiens pour aller les Turcs et en Caïques.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight

Here one day
Gone one night


R.I.P Michael

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon

Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon

Gone too soon

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Thought i was in love with money

Till the first time we did the nasty

I want a new car.
I want a condo and a new car.
I want a 3 bedroom condo and a new car.
I want a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom condo and a new car.
I want a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom condo with a den and a new car.
I want a higher paying job so that I can afford my 3 bedroom 2 bathroom with a den condo and a new car.
I want a higher paying job with less hours so that I can afford my 3 bedroom 2 bathroom with a den condo and a new car.
I want a job where I don't have to work to make lots of money so that I can afford my 3 bedroom 2 bathroom with a den condo and a new car.
I want a job in Hawaii where I don't have to work to make lots of money so that I can afford my 3 bedroom 2 bathroom with a den condo and a new car.
I want a job in Hawaii or Bora Bora where I don't have to work to make lots of money so that I can afford my 3 bedroom 2 bathroom with a den condo and a new car.
I want a new car.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

walk away.........

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, should've, would've happened or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on."

- Tupac Shakur

Friday, June 19, 2009

Yes we can


If only more people were like him:

"As the father of two young girls who have shown such poise, humor, and patience in the unconventional life into which they have been thrust, I mark this Father's Day—our first in the White House—with a deep sense of gratitude. I observe this Father's Day not just as a father grateful to be present in my daughters' lives but also as a son who grew up without a father in my own life. My father left my family when I was 2 years old, and I knew him mainly from the letters he wrote and the stories my family told. And while I was lucky to have two wonderful grandparents who poured everything they had into helping my mother raise my sister and me, I still felt the weight of his absence throughout my childhood.

In many ways, I came to understand the importance of fatherhood through its absence—both in my life and in the lives of others. I came to understand that the hole a man leaves when he abandons his responsibility to his children is one that no government can fill. We can do everything possible to provide good jobs and good schools and safe streets for our kids, but it will never be enough to fully make up the difference. We need fathers to step up, to realize that their job does not end at conception; that what makes you a man is not the ability to have a child but the courage to raise one. We need to step out of our own heads and tune in. We need to turn off the television and start talking with our kids, and listening to them, and understanding what's going on in their lives. I know I have been an imperfect father. I know I have made mistakes. I have lost count of all the times, over the years, when the demands of work have taken me from the duties of fatherhood. There were many days out on the campaign trail when I felt like my family was a million miles away, and I knew I was missing moments of my daughters’ lives that I'd never get back. It is a loss I will never fully accept. On this Father's Day, I think back to the day I drove Michelle and a newborn Malia home from the hospital nearly 11 years ago—crawling along, miles under the speed limit, feeling the weight of my daughter's future resting in my hands. I think about the pledge I made to her that day: that I would give her what I never had—that if I could be anything in life, I would be a good father."

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I'm losing you..........

.............and it's effortless

"There's a luggage limit for every passenger on a flight. The same rules apply to your life. You must elimiate some baggage before you can fly."

- Rosalind Johnson

Friday, June 12, 2009

And so the lion fell in love with the lamb

What a stupid lamb........
What a sick, masochistic lion.......

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Let's rearrange.....

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Random thought Thursday......because of her Random Thoughts Tuesday's.

☼ My mother thinks i'm a lesbian. I haven't had a boyfriend in god knows how long and I have two really good friends who are also single and I like to pinch my mother's butt. Well, not just her butt, I pinch her on her arms and legs too, but only because it's fun. I pinch my dad and my baby and Meli too. She's even gone as far as to get my grandmother in Trinidad to find "a good Trini boy" for me. No dice so far.

☼ My parents bought their own anniversary present. Meli and I were told that we have to get my parents a trip for my parents to Cuba. Since Meli paid for their trip to Bahamas for their 30th anniversary, I decided to pay for this one. Well, I have no money, and my credit card is in the negatives, I couldn't afford it. SO my dad bought it on his and I have to pay them back in installments.

☼ I passed my course. I got a 68%, but whatever a pass is a pass.

☼ I now have the great job of trying to find summer camps for baby for the summer. She likes dancing and singing and swimming. She's into the arts. There's no dance camps in our region and the swimming classes start at SwimKids 4. She's a SwimKids 1.

☼ I went to a martini bar and didn't drink any martini's. In fact, I was baited out with a big wine glass while everyone had martini glasses. Same when I went clubbing, I had a big red plastic cup and everyone else had clear plastic clubs.
*Hello, my name is llleeesssaaa and I don't drink!!!!!!!*

☼ Baby wants to invite the bully from the beginning of the year to her birthday party. I guess it's good that's they're over they're differences. If she want it, she gets it.

That's it.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Monday, June 1, 2009

I have just met you and I love you.....

SQUIRREL
This weekend we went to go see Disney Pixar's Up. It was in 3D and really good. It was also very sad. Very, very sad. It's expected from Disney movies though, with Dumbo and Bambi. Those were some pretty sad movies.
***SPOILERS SPOILERS***
So there's this man (but we knew him as a boy who fell in love with and married his childhood sweetheart, Ellie), Mr. Fredricton who loses his house to a devoloper, when he smacked a construction worker with the mailbox that he and Ellie have their handprints painted on when they first moved into the house where they first met eachother. In an attempt to keep the house and fulfill a promise that he made to Ellie when he fell through the house that they now live in, and that was to build a house at the top of Paradise Falls, he attaches a bazillion balloons to his house in an attempt to fly to South America.
There's this little boy, Russell (he looks asian), who has to get an 'assisting the elderly badge'. In an attempt to assist Mr. Frederick, he somehow lands under the porch when the house flies away. He has now become a stowaway.
Together, they embark in an adventure, where they encounter talking dogs, an evil villain and a rare bird named Kevin that is trying to feed her babies.
I give it 2 enthusiatic thumbs up, 5 shiny starts and whatever good rating is available.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Somebody once told me, the world is gonna rule me

I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed

So this is what I am wearing for Caribana this year. Mind you, this is only the second year that I am playing mas. I am playing with my sister and my cousin. They are both seasoned revellers, my cousin more so than meli, nonetheless, the have years and years of more experience than I do. Meli and I went to check out the mas camp for Carnival Nationz about a week after they first launched and the only section we all agreed was nice and wanted to play in was Secret Garden. When we got there we were advised that that section was promptly sold out at the actual launch. Ok, we then had to decide how we were going to do this.
We were scoping out band launches since the end of April looking for costumes that we liked and and dj's that were hot and most importantly, NO LIVE BANDS!!! haha, got you Truds, don't worry. So there was only one big band left to launch, when we made the decision to go with Nationz, and since Meli has something against Saldenah I was vetoed and here we are at the mas camp looking for costumes. After about 2 hours (no lie) using a fine tooth comb to sive out 3 costumes Meli and Truds decided on Scabiosa (which is a flower, google it) and I liked Poison Ivy. I thought Scabiosa was too much like our costumes last year. Once I get pics of both, I will put up and you can see.
Anyways, maybe because I was pmsing or my cousin on the phone was encouraging me that "we don't have to play in the same sections, we'll meet once the sections cross the stage", but whatever it is, I'm playing by myself!!!! I bought a Poison Ivy and the two people I play with are not playing with me!!!
I know that with my luck, we will be sepearated probably by all the other sections and I'm not going to know anyone. I have enough issues alone, crossing the stage with people I know!!! Plus, there section is already 90% sold out while mine is pushing "good numbers"......wtf......that's layman terms for not really sell that great.......ggreeeaaatttttt
I will keep you updated on how it goes after Caribana.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I forgot to say outloud, how beautiful you really are to me......

I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag

Dear Mr. Right,

I know you are out there looking for me, as I am for you. One day, we will meet (again), because I am sure I met you three years ago, when I went clubbing with my friends. You were my dream guy. No really, everything I thought you would be (down to your name and age). It was my self-sabotage that once again deflected you. I know that I will meet you again and we will live happilly ever after forever and ever and ever because you will have forgiven me for acting a fool 3 years ago. I am (somewhat) waiting patiently. Standing at 6ft, you will weight between 150-175 and have curly hair. You do not gel your hair or put any of that crap in it. I know you will have a good job and your own car and goals in lilfe. I know you will be funny, and smart and enjoy good food because you can cook. You will also be tolerate of my mood swings and my need to watch anything reality and my constant hunger.
I don't even need to put in how you need to feel about my daughter because that is a given.
Can't wait to meet you (again)!!

Sincerely Yours,
llleeesssaaa

Monday, May 25, 2009

jas's house

"Luckily the phone rang. We both answered it. It was Rosie. She and Sven were calling from a phone box. 'We just rang to say we've made up this great new dance; it's called The Phone Box'.
She played a radio down the phone and in the background I could hear a lot of grunting and shuffling and Sven going 'oh jah, oh jah, hit it lads!!!!' or something in Swedish or whatever it is he speaks. Then there was a bit of what sounded like tap dancing. Rosie came back on the phon all breathless. 'Brilliant, eh? See you in the next world.......don't be late!!!!!' And she slammed the phone down."

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Friday, May 22, 2009

If you are what you say you are..........

a superstarrrrr

Because everyone's doing it........

You were born on a Wednesday. (me too!!! Woe are weeee)
Your star sign is Aries. (yup yup)
Your birthstone is Diamond. (True sayyy, I like shiny things)
The season was Spring. (meh)
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rooster. (Cockadoodledoooooooo)
The US President was Ronald Reagan (Republican). (homie, i'm Trini/Canadian, i don't care)
The UK Prime Minister was Margaret Thatcher (Conservative). (please see above)
You are 28 years 1 month 7 days old. (shhhh, dl man, dee-eelllll)
It is 328 days until your next birthday. (okie)
In dog years you are 196 years old. (i'm an olldddd beatch)
You are 10,264 days old.
You are approximately 246,351 hours old.
You are approximately 886,865,309 seconds old.

K, bye!!!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Just call me whenever you're lonely

I'll be your friend, I can be your homie

I haven't really had anything to write about. I lie, I have stuff to write about, but when I start writing, I forget what I was going to write about.
Anyways, babe's good. She has a skip-a-thon tomorrow so she's superstoked about that. She's raise dover $300!! Go baby girl!!
Oh, we got the invitation to this cousins sister's wedding. It's on September 19th. I don't have plans that day yet, but I intend to do something, so I will be busy and can't go. So, HOLLA if you want to do something, hahahaha. I'm available. But my daddy says he needs a dd (because he will be drinking, as it's the only way he can be around my mothers family, lol), so I can't make any plans.
Oh, and on the same note, I was unofficially invited to her bacholorette. They're going to Niagara for wine tasting. FOR THE BACHOLORETTE PARTY!!!! I don't drink. I have a baby that I like to go home to (and I was informed that it's overnight). ANNDDDDD it's on the same weekend as my child's birthday. Honestly, she's getting married in September, why the hell is her bacholorette 2 months before?!?!?! Meli's was a month early, only because she was fasting for a month, but this chick is getting married in a church (i.e catholic or christian or some hey-seuss abiding religion), no fasting required. Plus, it's the day of kiddies carnival, so I don't think I can go, but I want to see the invitation still. So, I didn't mention any of those "issues" yet, i'm going w/ the flow. I'm a maco yes.

Do you think I am wrong??

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Happy Mother's Day (two days late)

Mother's day is too serious.
Take some time to laugh.

25 REASONS I OWE MY MOTHER

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE .
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION .
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL .
"If you don't straighten up,
I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4. My mother taught me LOGIC .
" Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC .
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT .
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY .
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry
About."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS .
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM .
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10.. My mother taught me about STAMINA .
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER .
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."


12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY .
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE .
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION .
"Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY .
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents Like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION .
"Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING .
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE .
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP .
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"


20. My mother taught me HUMOR .
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT .
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS .
"You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS .
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM .
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE .
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you.

Friday, May 8, 2009

I refuse to believe

You do not think of me, like I do you
So my cousin has a boyfriend. This bothers me two ways (well more than two ways, but I'll give you the two foremost reasons). 1. He's a customs officer. Now, I really, really have a thing for any guy in a uniform. My gay ex-boss and I agreed (mind you, this was probably the only time we agreed) that if a guy is a "6" in real life, he automatically jumps to at least an "8" in a uniform. Also, I work in logisitcs, so I deal with customs alot. In this new position that I am in, I actually make runs to customs. There was this one customs officer that I was actually, I guess you could almost call it, stalking. I knew he wroked on Tuesday's and Wednesday's after 1 pm. I didn't know his name, and they rotate positions, so he's now been moved. He's bound to come back to this post again. Anyways, I straying from the point. It's not even that he's probably a hottie (I saw him on her profile pic on fb, (and only profile pic, b/c she's not even on my friends list. I told you, stalker tendencies.) And he's not that good looking, maybe in his uniform he could be a 5, 5.5 max. Definately not my type. But it's the fact, that he was what i'm supposed to be. I don't want to get into it, b/c I make myself cry, but it's totally not fair (again, it is fair and it's all my fault anyways, i'm just dodging responsibility). 2. She's my cousin, but we can't pick and choose our family. She's ugly. Mind you some people might think she's pretty, but I think she has a big nose. Her hair reminds me of a portuguese water dog (think Gavin Rossdale's dog, Winston) and she talks with a funny accent (SHUT UP!!!!). She's boring and unintelligent and short.

I'm not mean or angry......i'm jealous.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Let me see you wine like it is your first time

Let me see you join up your hip to your spine



Just for fun. . .

(x)Your parents are strict
()You like bollywood music
(x)You've worn brown clothes (I don't know what this constitues, but I'm guessing it's those dresses w/ the net under them and the white lacy socks etc.)
()Brown music is constantly playing in your house
(x)You've been to Gerrard street at least once
(x)You know who Shahrukh Khan is
(x)You know a badword in a brown language
(x)You've used a bad word in a brown language against someone
(x)You've accidentally said a brown word to a white person
(x)You've been to a brown country at least once

Total so far: 8

()Own at least one brown dress (again, I don't know what falls into this section, so I skip this time)
(x)You like brown food
()You've watched those Brown serials on tv
(x)You've sang a brown song in public before
(x)You've screamed a brown word before.
(x)You scare white people or you have turned white people brown
()You admire a brown actor/actress like CRAZY !
(x)Your mom & dad's friends are your aunty and uncle
()You have to call your cousins or brothers & sisters who older then you a brown word
(x)You LOVE teaching white kids brown words (Does Marky count???)

Total so far: 14


(x)you told your parents you got 98%, and they ask you what happened to the other two percent.
()There is a sale on any item, you buy 100 of them.
()When mail is a reinvestment... postage stamps are 're
()You never buy bin bags, but use your saved grocery bags for it.
()You put your clothes in suitcases instead of wardrobes.
(x)Your mother has a minor disagreement with her sister and doesn't talk to her for ten years.
(x)You call an older person you've never met before "uncle".
(x)Everyone is a family friend.
()You HAVE TO study law, medicine or engineering at university.
()You know no one who has studied music.

Total so far: 18

()Your best friend got married at the age of 17.
(x)You use chilli sauce instead of tomato ketchup.
(x)You fight over who pays the dinner bill .
(x) You're dad starts arguing with you or gets into a fight with you and tries to speak english so fast that he does not make any sense.
(x)You say you hate Brown films/songs but secretly watch/hear them
()you make a big deal if you see a girl and guy talking
()You at times say "open the light" instead of "turn the light on".
()You're walking out of customs with your trolley at the airport and u see all twenty-five members of your family who have come to pick you up.
()You go back to your parents' country and people treat you like a member of the royal family.
()Your parents call all your friends "Beta" (son/daughter)

Total: 22

()Your parents drink atleast 3 cups of tea a day
(x)Your parents compare you to all of you friends.
()At least once a week your mom says, "I want to go to India/Pakistan/Guyana/ Trinidad "
(x)You're parent's always say while shopping abroad, "It's cheaper in India/Pakistan/Guyana/Trinidad/China"
()Everytime you do something wrong your parents threaten to send you to India/Pakistan/SriLanka/Guyana/Trinidad
(x)When you're at parties 'we're leaving now' means we'll leave in about 30 min
(x)You are in time for parties/ your family parties last till 1 am
()5ft. 5 Inches, is a record height in your family
() One of Your parents’ are doctors, engineers, or hotel/shop owners.
(x)A "B" or lower is totally unacceptable on your report card.

Total: 27

Multiply your score by two to get your brownness percentage...
54%

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Everyday love me your own special way

Melt all my heart away with a smile

Saw this as I was randomly watching some videos on my phone one night because I couldn't sleep. This definately brought on the lol's late at night, heck even in the daytime, it brings out the lol's.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

There's something about them wolvesssss

This is totally why I would waste my time:

VS.