I used to have hood dreams

Big fame, Big chains

Hellomynameisllleeesssaaaandiam
mediocre

Winter hating on me......

......cus i'm colder than y'all

BabyGirl has gym today and she hates changing in the change rooms, especially now that she has gym last period. So on days that she has gym, she usually wears jogging pants and t-shirts so that she doesn't have to change and she already has on proper attire. Well, with jogging pants, they don't usually come with the elastic adjustable waists, they're either elastic or they have a string to tie. Well, Baby has some jogging pants where they are elastic and the string is for aesthetic purposes only. Today she wore one of the jogging pants that fit lengthwise but are loose around the waist. Since there is no way to adjust the waist on her jogging pants I have this method to make the waist fit on her pants. I grap the excess fabric either in the front or the back of her pants (which ever is loosest) and I take a hair tie and I tie the hair tie around the bunch of fabric. Now it does leave this piece out that is less than desirable, but it works.....mostly. However, I am sure today when she comes home from school, I will get in a loadful of crap because the hair tie probably came out and her pants have fallen off. It has happened before.

I used to have a man.....

He used to have a side chick.........

My cousins wedding was this weekend. I'm not trying to only find the negative things that happened and dwell on those, but let's be honest; there was nothing good there to go to and there was no fun had. My night consisted of negative things, so I will tell you about that. If you don't want to know about it, or think that I am too negative, feel free to navigate your way off my page. Here are some highlights (if you will):

First of all, if anyone ever decides to mapquest Les Jarding banquet hall, DONT!!! You will get the wrong address. Ended up going 20mins in the wrong direction. Then I had my over anxious mother and grandmother in the car. Oooh boy, did I get an earful. We arrived on time though, at 6, and the bride was only then entering the building, to go to her special area to wait until she was called. Then, they did not have a seating plan. So remember, I was initally upset that I had to sit with single people. Well, now there was no seating plan, so I sat with Meli and my parents and aunt sat right beside us. When the speeches were going on, everyone was talking about the bride and how good a catch she was. Well, I 've known her most of my life, albeit, we weren't close or anything, but we knew eachother and I'm sorry, but I don't share these same memories. I know it's her wedding and they can't really say she's a bitch and good for nothing, but it just got me thinking that hey, maybe I missed out on this great person whom everyone seems to truly like. But then I'm like 'fuck it. I have enough great people in my life and they are all that I need'. The speeches were long. The MOH, i'll admit had a speech, which is one up on me who just started crying and left the mic (MELI, I TOLD YOU I DIDN'T WANT TO!!!), but I thought she was too loud and obnoxious. Nothing new. The music sucked. The dj talked too much. I did like the fact that I had unlimited access to all-i-can-drink virgin caesars. The bartender kept laughing at me whenever I ordered it though, is there something humourous about me asking for that?? The meal was buffet!! And the options sucked. There wasn't even fried chicken. The speeches ended up going on until 10 pm. Then the one cousin that I speak to, she left at 11. Meli left even before the speeches were done!! Plus my dress was too loose around my breasts area and I was having issues with it staying up. My cousin decided that her sister should get the bouquet for the toss, and her parents were none the happier. Honestly, she hasn't even been with the guy for a year yet. Plus, they're soooo awkward. They just look like they're trying too hard.
So, it was what was expected.

lalala II

i'm feeling mm lately.........

lalala

This is harder than I thought;

i quit.

Blueprints in my pink ipod

Black diamonds in my hey-seus piece, my God!

(Not really, more like in my Krishna piece)

I'm at a loss. I bought a strapless dress and it's a little short for the wedding this weekend. Now it's going to be cold and I don't have a sweater or coverup to wear with it. What do you suggest??

Please see below my dress and shoes, except my dress doesn't have that green belt, it's black, and the shoes are black sequenced.

Away from me to see clearly

The way that love can be when you are not with me.

My future-baby-daddy tour.

Just remember......

You're the one thing I can't get enough of. So I'll tell you something; this could be love!!

R.I.P Patrick Swayze

"I'm gonna do my kind of dancin' with a great partner, who's not only a terrific dancer; somebody who's taught me that there are people willing to stand up for other people no matter what it costs them; somebody who's taught me about the kind of person I wanna be."

The world is filled with 'em

Morons, idiots, jackasses, and assholes. Whatever you want to call them, unfortunately, the world is filled with them.

Some examples are:

1. Caster Semenya. She is not the idiot though. She is victim of such people who, unfortunately for her, head the IAAF. She is also a runner competing to be in the Olympics. Her story is that she (and yes I said she) was born a hamophrodite. However, she didn't know and no one in her family knew. To train as a female runner, there are instances where girls don't get their periods at all, and she was athletic, so she had a runners body; very slim and muscular, almost no breasts. Hell, I'm not a runner and I have no breasts. Anyways, unbeknownst it to ANYONE, she has no female reproductive organs and internal male testicles. Now, in her last race, she blew the competition out of the dust and that caused some jealousy with the other runners. They wanted proof that she was a female. They claimed that she was a man racing as a female to win some medals. So she went for testing, and low and behold the results came out that she was a hemaphrodite. But she didn't get the results first hand. No, it was PUBLISHED IN AN AUSTRALIAN NEWSPAPER before she even knew!!!! Before her family even knew!!! Now this poor girl has to deal with all the bs since she has been outed before she even knew. It was said that she's under suicide watch. My heart goes out to her.

2. Kanye West is a jackass. 'Nuff said.

3. My cousin is getting married this weekend. Now, we've been to weddings where they've seated people to keep the whole family together, or to keep the adults together, but the cousins (if you will) sat together, and even where they split up everyone, so that there are new people sitting with new people but they always kept Meli and I together. Now for this cousins wedding, they've decided to sit the single people together and the married people together then, I guess. So Baby and I am sitting with my cousins (I think), and Meli and my parents are sitting together with my aunt and Grandma. Why the f*ck would you seperate it to sit like that?!?! I want to broadcast my single mommy hood?!?! I am soo desperate to be hooked up with someone?!??! Well, I am, but you don't need to share my business like that man........

Ay yo, I smoke like a chimney

Matter fact - I smoke like a gun when a killer sees his enemy.

Not really, I don't smoke, but why is it you can't find lyrics like this anymore. WHO KILLED THE MOTHER FRICKIN' MUSIC?!?!?!

Anywho, just an update in my sad and pathetic life. No, I lie again, I'm just in one of those moods where I think my life suck, but really I should be counting my blessings. And I am grateful for everything that everybody that I have in my life. I have had alot of oppurtunities that have been more than enough to get me to where I want to be, it's my own slackness and laziness that's stopping me. I have no one to blame but myself.

Again, not really the point. This weekend was a long weekend. I made it extra long, not to the liking of Meli, as now I don't hav enough vacation time in November to go to Turks and Caicos. I know, I suck, I'm sorry (again). I will work something out, don't even worry about it.

Tried to prep Baby for the first day back. No, that's not true. I was trying to prep for the first day back for Baby. I miss sleeping in. I forgot how creative one has to be to pack a lunch. I forget how inflexible teachers can be and even worse, school secretaries. Hello, I'm not the student, speak to me like an adult, BECAUSE I AM ONE!!!! I forgot about all the issues Baby has with "friends". I forgot how I have to fight the urge to go to the school and smack all the wayward children. I forgot that I have to let Baby fight her own battles, and try not to hold on so tight. I forgot about all the extra costs involved with public school as all our money is now going into Catholic school board, and the new Afro-centric school.

Mo, you don't know how good you got it, mannnn.

Baby girl went AWOL,

........She used to be my soldier

You gotta be careful who u motivate though.. Motivate an idiot, and all u'll have is a motivated idiot!

- Rev. Run DMC

Cooking chicken on the wall......

With the system up on full.

I think I'm going to rename September "llleeesssaaa's-self-pity-month".

I hate my life (except for Baby Girl).

Look up in the sky, it's a bird, it's a plane...

Nah baby girl, that's a shooting star with your name.

So Baby starts grade 2 in less than a week. We're super stoked. We were recently out buying some back to school stuff, like pencils, eraser, pencil crayons, pencil cases, you know, stuff like that. Baby had specific things that she liked, prodominantly stuff licenced to Disney Princess. Now, if you did the math, she just turned 7 years old.
Here's my question, is she too old for this stuff?
She still likes to watch Treehouse and Disney Playhouse. She likes to play dress up and plays with her dolls and has imaginary friends. When we hang out with other kids, she will play with the younger ones, rather than the older ones. She's still into Disney Princess (as stated above), and Disney Tinkerbell and even CareBears. She hasn't really moved onto Hannah Montana or any of that Disney Channel stuff. Frankly, I don't mind that, because really those kids on those shows have way too much attitude. My child has enough of her own, she doesn't need those influences as to how to make my life more difficult.
Even last year, she came home and said, her friends made fun of her because she still believes in Santa and the tooth fairy. How and when should I break it to her? I want her to get everything out of her childhood, because she will have to grow up soon enough.

Happy Anniversary.......

To One Super-Duper Couple!!!

HAPPY SEPTEMBER!!!!

i'm sick.